My heart is aching. I can’t bare the thought of breathing just for one.
I found out about you only Sunday evening but I felt you long before that. Your presence crept it’s way into my dreams where images of you flashed into my emotional brain that’s drowning in doubt, my mind flooded with fear, scared that I’m not yet ready or prepared for your arrival. That night on March 23rd as your father consoled me, wiping the tears away from my puffy eyes and trying to ease my heavy heart, all I could think about was you and the love that I’ve had for you my entire life. All my life I’ve dreamt about you. I’ve dreamt about holding you, I’ve dreamt about what you would look like, I’ve dreamt about chaotic mornings and lazy nights, all the places we’d travel, all the things I would teach you… just you and me against the world.
"you don’t need to get an abortion to have a big career because the truth is children will always be an inconvenience. it doesn’t matter whether you have them now or later, because they will always make your career and your life more difficult. there is no time in your life when you are so stable that kids won’t create an earthquake underneath that confidence"
you, my dove, are not an inconvenience. It may not be the right time, I may not be finished with school, I may not be a CEO of a mega-corporation or live in a beautiful home, but I will build a life for you, my dear, because i know that my heart couldn’t take the life-long ache that would come from giving you up. So for you, I will try.
I’m so honored to be able take this journey with you, I can’t wait to watch you grow and fill the rest of our days with laughter. You are the sweetest inconvenience I could have ever asked for and you sweet baby already make my world go round.
Everyone is worth saving, even the monsters. In the face of darkness you drag everyone into the light. That is the point of YOU.
Just because i’m blonde and my name is Lexy doesn’t mean i’m going to sleep with you.
I’m really selfish. I’ve been selfish my entire life, especially with my hard earned money. I never want to spend a penny on anyone but me because quite frankly, I don’t like any other being besides myself and I do, I’ll admit it, I spoil myself constantly because that’s what makes me happy and I know I shouldn’t be this way but I can’t help it. Things like donating money or buying friends & family gifts don’t make me feel good. In fact they make me feel the complete opposite because all I do for the next year after that is worry, thinking about all the things I could have bought instead. It’s just like playing Minecraft on the xbox where the world is limited and so are the resources. I won’t let anyone into my world because I don’t want them to mine any materials and waste them because if I were to ever mine that entire world, I could never get back those few ores that were wasted and for whatever reason, the thought of that makes me really uncomfortable. It’s a horrible feeling, constantly worrying over something so trivial when I know it’s not a big deal and I wish I weren’t like that but I am, or at least I was until recently. Lately I wander about life, shopping every day like usual except now with you in mind. It’s no longer, ‘i want to buy this because i like it’ it’s more like, ‘wow, I want to buy this because i like you and it’ll make you happy’ which in such, still renders me to be selfish because if you’re happy, I’m happy therefore I’m only doing it for me ultimately making me selfish and I buy you things, yes, but that’s not what’s weird to me. What I find to be odd is the fact that when I’m purchasing something for myself, it’s still about you. I bought new sheets & pillows yesterday and all I could think about was what sheets would be most comfy to cuddle with you in. When I went to Gamestop I ended up buying games that we could play together. While buying shoes I buy shoes that I think you’ll like on me. Even when buying gum I buy gum that I know you like so if you ever ask me for a piece of gum, I’ll have your favorite kind. I keep fruit punch stored in my fridge and your android phone charger plugged in next to my bed.
I know this isn’t very romantic, it’s probably the farthest from it but what I’m saying is you’re the first person that I’ve ever enjoyed going out of my way for and this coming from the most selfish, materialistic, cynical person in the world… that has to mean something, right?
p.s. You still can’t join World Wolzington on xbox.
Anonymous asked: TMI Tuesday: What is the sexiest scenario you can think of?
Like dirty coal miners.. But in space. With overalls made of licorice
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How To: Get A Boyfriend
STEP 1: Be attractive to men
STEP 2: Be charming
STEP 3: Study the art of witchcraft
STEP 4: Shave off your hair
STEP 5: Absorb his life force
STEP 6: Eat his bones
STEP 7: Wear his skin
STEP 8: BECOME YOUR BOYFRIEND
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